shout out

last view weeks was the hardest week of mine.

some working life crash.
some love life crash.
some business crash.
something hit me from inside here.

you will have a lot of time to cried. trying to stay when you felt so exhausted, i cannot explain how it feels like. letting yourself to felt something that you hate so much.
you know who will makes your life be peace in the future, but you also know which one fills your ego.
you started something that you put your effort so much, but they didn't gave it to you.

i'm just trying to face it all. let myself feel what i have to feel. but still, there is something wrapped in my mouth. and i still cannot stop thinking about something. i hate it, but i starts having something like "it should be like this" in my mind. i hate that kind of phrase. i hate that kind of "it should be like this".

Lord, could you please give me a time to have some rest? to go away from this? to do what i usually do? let me back to my previous happiness...

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maybe now i'm on my way to ignore all of my thought above.
let's be happy for what you do today, Gla!
enjoy your process to learn more about plants!
enjoy your process!