Hi guys! How are you doing?
I’m pretty good anyway.
I’m here! Again, after a long time I’ve been going to
somewhere inside other side of my mind.
So, I come here, again, with one question that I don’t know
where must I go to get the answer. That question is “What I’m fighting for,
here?”
First of all, I know that you’ve been known that I hate to go
back to Jakarta. Actually that’s all became harder after my graduation. Its all
about my parent’s trust, my monthly cost (literally it was not a big problem that
I have a job here), and my career path.
I thought that I had to work with my passion. I have to live
in comfort place. I have to through my day with people I’d love. But you know
what? I couldn’t find any reason to stay here now. About passion? Well, honestly, I’ve been resign from my previous
lovely job because of pride maybe (haha its just excuse to say that I think my
boss didn’t respect me well because he paid me so cheap haha) and after that I got
my current job. Hmmm at the first time I felt sooooo happy just because I had a
better job, better company, and bigger salary.
But it was not working anymore. For this 8 months, I can say that I’m
not happy with my job, with the environment, and the career path also. I feel
bored. I want to resign as fast as I can. I’m seeking for a new job almost
every time. Is passion still important? Yes of course it is. But for now, I
need a job which give me more. And I didn’t get it here (for
now).
I have to live in
comfort place. I want it so so so much. But I think I will become spoiled
if I get it now, too quick and too easy. Its ok for me to stay at my comfort
place on an old ages. Or maybe I just don’t know about the other comfort place
or that I can make my own comfort place. So, I need to improve myself and push
my limit for now.
I have to through my
day with people I’d love. My close friend, most of them, was back to their
home base. Of course I have another friend here, and also another close friends
here. But they are busy with their own business now. It’s hard for us to meet
and harder to share what I’m worries about or happy about, etc. My special one?
Huh, don’t ask me please. Let me make it private enough. So, family is the
people that I have to spend my time a lot with.
Do you have another reason for me to stay?
