another reason

Hi guys! How are you doing?

I’m pretty good anyway.

I’m here! Again, after a long time I’ve been going to somewhere inside other side of my mind.

So, I come here, again, with one question that I don’t know where must I go to get the answer. That question is “What I’m fighting for, here?”

First of all, I know that you’ve been known that I hate to go back to Jakarta. Actually that’s all became harder after my graduation. Its all about my parent’s trust, my monthly cost (literally it was not a big problem that I have a job here), and my career path.

I thought that I had to work with my passion. I have to live in comfort place. I have to through my day with people I’d love. But you know what? I couldn’t find any reason to stay here now. About passion? Well, honestly, I’ve been resign from my previous lovely job because of pride maybe (haha its just excuse to say that I think my boss didn’t respect me well because he paid me so cheap haha) and after that I got my current job. Hmmm at the first time I felt sooooo happy just because I had a better job, better company, and bigger salary.  But it was not working anymore. For this 8 months, I can say that I’m not happy with my job, with the environment, and the career path also. I feel bored. I want to resign as fast as I can. I’m seeking for a new job almost every time. Is passion still important? Yes of course it is. But for now, I need a job which give me more. And I didn’t get it here (for now).

I have to live in comfort place. I want it so so so much. But I think I will become spoiled if I get it now, too quick and too easy. Its ok for me to stay at my comfort place on an old ages. Or maybe I just don’t know about the other comfort place or that I can make my own comfort place. So, I need to improve myself and push my limit for now.

I have to through my day with people I’d love. My close friend, most of them, was back to their home base. Of course I have another friend here, and also another close friends here. But they are busy with their own business now. It’s hard for us to meet and harder to share what I’m worries about or happy about, etc. My special one? Huh, don’t ask me please. Let me make it private enough. So, family is the people that I have to spend my time a lot with.

Do you have another reason for me to stay?